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  1. Rec *

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    “We didn’t kiss.”

    Saying the words felt like a boulder had been lifted off his chest for a few blissful seconds before a whole mountain crashed down to take its place. What the fuck was he thinking? Saying something so pathetic, so needy, so utterly stupid over something so insignificant? Heat flooded his face, a different kind of shame, fresh and hot.

    (or, I was mad that Shane never got any reassurance or apology for the Vegas humiliation ritual and "we didn't even kiss")

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Shane is used to feeling fuzzy with Rozanov. Like he’s floating higher, higher, higher. But this - this isn’t that.

    Shane isn’t floating, he’s falling. Sinking down, down, down below, into darkness. It feels like there are waves crashing over his head, cold and sharp like needles against his skin, and when he does manage to breach the surface for a moment, he’s met with thick fog and a starless sky. It feels sort of like a concussion, but not. There’s no pain, just…haziness. Just a gaping, empty feeling, right in the centre of his chest.

    (Or, Vegas rewritten.)

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    19 Jun 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    19 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 85

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    The night of the draft, when Shane gets so unsettlingly tempted by the sight of Ilya Rozanov winking at him after he’s sure their fingers touched for a moment too long on that water bottle, his mind is spinning so hard he finds himself downloading grindr and talking to some guy that might be an asshole, or might just understand him better than anyone. What follows is eight years of an emotional outlet for both of them to talk about how they really feel, unaware that they’re talking about each other...to each other.

    OR, while they’re falling into bed together in canon, they’re also falling in love through their anonymous messages and emails to one another.

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    18 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 41

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    He tried to shake Shane off. To lie and say we are not anything, to ignore every point of contact.

    He hadn’t prepared for Montreal Jane.
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    after Sochi, Ilya still won’t speak to him, so Shane takes a chance on a new strategy.

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    18 Jun 2026