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  1. Rec 69

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    Shane has devoted his entire life to ballet.

    Ilya has devoted one month to watching Shane.

    Somehow, the second obsession is far more dangerous.

    Mafia Boss Ilya Rozanov x Ballet Dancer Shane Hollander

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    29 Jun 2026

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    With how many years of his life he has spent kissing Ilya Rozanov, you’d think it would get boring. But there’s never enough time for Shane to do it as much as he’d like, as much as he craves. What they have has lived between long haul drives and hotel room walls, hidden in the confines of empty apartment buildings and text threads under names that aren’t their own.

    Despite it all, loving Ilya was always inevitable for Shane.

    or, shane drops after vegas and hopes the feeling doesn't last forever. ilya meets him halfway.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    What if everything in the MLH Awards rooftop scene had.gone completely differently?

    "I feel like I'm home. I don't know what that means. I have never felt at home anywhere in a long time. But right now. With you inside me. Your hands on me. I am home."

    A canon divergence from Heated Rivalry Episode 1 "Rookies." The MLH awards rooftop scene, rewritten - what Shane and Ilya truly feel about each other, and about the award, when nobody walks away. A character study on how Ilya's scars impact him, on how deeply and freely Shane loves him, and the start of something beautiful. Two boys. One trophy. Zero words big enough for what they feel for each other.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya, you don’t actually want to watch these, I promise. They’re just boring old kiddy games.”

    Ilya blinks. “Shane. Are you trying to tell me that I will not like something because it is ‘boring’? I think we have plenty of evidence that this is simply not true, no?”

    Shane fixes him with his most withering glare. “Well, if I’m calling something boring, imagine how boring it actually is.”

    “I know you are trying to trick me, Hollander,” Ilya states, raising a single brow. “But you will not deny me my right as your husband to see baby Shane in his tiny little skates.”

    Or: Shane and Ilya watch some of Shane’s old home movies. It leads to a few revelations.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Going so long without that type of mind-melting, pure relief had Shane wound tight and buzzing, despite the sheer amount of orgasms Ilya had wrung out of him already. He wanted Ilya’s dick, long and thick, occupying every inch of his mouth. He wanted to run his tongue along it, suck at the tip, choke and gag as it hit the back of his throat. It had Shane wanting to claw his own skin off, or maybe bury himself underneath Ilya’s.

    He just needed it, okay? And was that really so bad? To need to choke on your boyfriend’s thick cock, filling up your mouth to the point you can’t think of anything else?

    …Okay, maybe it was a little bad.

    or; Shane is embarrassed of his all-consuming need to get his mouth on his boyfriend's dick. Ilya is more than happy to oblige.

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    25 Jun 2026