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    Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”

    “Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”

    He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.

     

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    Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.

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    16 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 32

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    inspired by this post on tumblr
    “I love the everyone wants to fuck Shane Hollander agenda so picture like, Ilya at a team member's bachelor party and the whole Raiders team is there and everyone is drunk and they're playing games and just yelling out answers at the same time to questions like what's your favourite position and age you lost your virginity and giving each other shit for the answers but then there's what player you would go gay for and suddenly the whole team yells Shane Hollander at once to stunned silence afterwards and Ilya has the worst fucking night of his life”
    by laviejaguardia

    update: THIS WORK WAS ORIGINALLY INTENDED TO BE A SINGLE CHAPTER, AND CAN BE READ AS COMPLETED, HOWEVER I MIGHT ADD A SECOND CHAPTER WITH BOSTON’S REACTION TO HOLLANOV COMING OUT

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Shane's adolescence has made him certain of exactly two things: he wants to win a Cup, and he wants to be with a man.

    How he came to the second realization, by means of a long-distance connection and late-night confessionals and one (just one!) kiss with a player much too old for him at sixteen was... complicated, but he doesn't have to worry about that right now, right?

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    15 Jun 2026

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    He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”

    The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.

    “What do you mean, not waking up?”

    “I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.

    “And then what?”

    He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”

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    Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.

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    15 Jun 2026

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