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“I’m just going to shower and then I’ll be right in.” Humphrey pressed a soft kiss to James’s lips and headed towards the bathroom, leaving James to undress and get himself ready for bed.
Humphrey had been quick but thorough with his shower, hoping he might be able to persuade his lover to explore something new in bed. He switched off the shower and stepped out, quickly drying himself before wrapping the towel around his waist whilst he applied deodorant and brushed his teeth. With his toothbrush in his mouth, Humphrey stared at himself in the mirror and couldn’t help but feel a little fizzle of excitement in the pit of his stomach at the possibility of sharing something special with James. A light knock on the door brought her Humphrey from his inner thoughts before James’ head popped around the door with a soft smile gracing his face.
“Sorry, just need to brush my teeth.” Humphrey stepped to the side creating space for James, as he did almost every night, and then continued with his own brushing whilst also watching his lover start the process of brushing his own teeth.
Humphrey rinsed and then dried his mouth and the moved to stand behind James, who was standing at the edge of the sink, dressed in navy blue pyjama shorts and a white t-shirt. He pressed his face into James’ shoulder and wound a hand around his torso, settling it underneath the t-shirt against the warm skin of his abdomen, the hairs on his stomach tickling his palm.
“I want you.” Humphrey murmured, fingertips stroking the skin beneath them softly, teasingly dipping under the first couple of millimetres of the waistband of his sleep shorts.
“I want you too.” James replied once he had rinsed and dried his mouth, attempting to turn in his lovers arms but finding himself held by a surprisingly strong grip.
“I would really like you to fuck me.”
“I can’t.” Humphrey paused at James’ rejection but took a moment to actually try to understand exactly what he was saying, rather than flying off the handle about being rejected.
“Talk to me baby. Tell me what you’re thinking.” Humphrey watched through the mirror as James closed his eyes and blew out a breath, hands coming to settle on the sink in front of him, the cold of the porcelain helping him to focus and not spiral as he could feel himself wanting to do.
“I’ve never. I mean I haven’t…. I’ve never been inside anyone.” The speed in which blood pooled into his cheeks and neck was startling and Humphrey could feel a light tremble run through James’ body. “I’m sorry. I know my inexperience must be tiring for you.” James shrugged himself out of Humphrey’s grip and headed back into the bedroom, quickly sliding under the duvet and pulling it up to his ears, his back to the middle of the bed and essentially Humphrey.
“You don’t get to make a statement and then flounce off, this isn’t a soap opera baby.” Humphrey stated, standing in the doorway of the bathroom observing his lover who was now wrapped up in a cocoon of duvet. A mumble could be heard from underneath the mound of material but none of it was intelligible. “Either speak up or turn and speak to me like a normal adult.” Humphrey was a little annoyed that this was James’ way of dealing with an uncomfortable situation.
“I said I didn’t flounce.” The voice was loud across the room but still no actual movement from the human cocoon. Humphrey rolled his eyes before dropping his towel, folding the damp material over the railing in the bathroom before walking through the room naked, heading for the chest of draws which contained his clothes, in particular his pyjamas and a small selection of James’ clothes, all neatly tucked away into one drawer.
“Admittedly it was a little more masculine than a flounce but no less dramatic. I was hoping we could be adults about this and actually talk this through but clearly not when you’re doing your best impression of a human sausage roll.” There was no movement from the mound so Humphrey slipped on a pair of bed shorts and rounded the bed, climbing in behind James and shuffling close until he was pressed against his back, curling his body until he was pressed from knee to chest. “I’m sorry I ruined the mood. I just want you so much and I want you to feel the pleasure I feel when I’m inside you. If it’s something you’re not interested in then that’s fine baby, I’ll not ask for it again.” Humphrey pressed a soft kiss to the tiny sliver of skin he could see between James’ hunched shoulders and his hairline before laying his head on the pillow and closing his eyes, trying to calm his racing thoughts and jumbled emotions.
The pair lay silently, the only noise was their combined breathing in the quiet of the room, however Humphrey’s eyes opened when he heard James take a breath, clearly about to speak.
“What if I’m rubbish? And I hurt you? Or I do it wrong? Or I’m so nervous I can’t stay hard and then have a panic attack right in the middle of it?” His voice was soft and laced with anxiety and the only thing Humphrey could do in the moment was slide his arm around James’ middle and and press himself closer until there wasn’t even air between them.
“Then we deal with it. Whatever happens we deal with it. You won’t hurt me, you don’t have it in you to be rough to the point you’ll physically hurt me. And there’s no way you can do it wrong. There aren’t any other places you can go quite frankly, so you’re either in my arse or you’re not. That’s about it. And if my amazingly attractive body and massive cock can’t keep you hard then we will never ever have sex together ever again for as long as we both shall live.” Humphrey couldn’t help but snort at the end of his sentence and James, who had momentarily tensed at his boyfriend’s words allowed them to register completely and he also snorted at the ridiculousness.
“Good god man, can you ever be serious?”
“Yes. When I have to be. However in this relationship you’re the serious one and therefore I have to be the comic relief to balance out your very serious face.” Humphrey pressed his face into the back of James’ neck and smacked an over-exaggerated kiss onto the back of his neck. Suddenly James forgot he was supposed to be huffing and turned indignantly to stare at his boyfriend who was laid with a huge grin on his face, bright blue eyes twinkling in the lamplight. “Hello handsome.”
“I am not that serious thank you very much. I can be fun.” Humphrey pecked a kiss on James’ nose and once more grinned.
“Oh you’re very serious my love, I think it’s the moustache, it’s very regimental.” James frowned and tilted his eyes down as if trying to actually look at his own moustache, which made Humphrey roll his eyes in jest. “You can be fun sometimes. I find you most fun when you’re laid out with your knees to your chest whilst I fill your arse and you’re begging me to go harder and faster. You’re also equally fun when you’re struggling to breathe because you’ve attempted to ram eight inches of cock down your throat, you’re positively a hoot.” James’ face turned a multitude of colours at his boyfriend’s insinuations and figured he needed to add a little bluster of his own in an attempt to level the playing field.
“Let’s see how much of a hoot you find me when I have you bent double whilst I ram every inch I have into you. Hmmm? I wonder just how fun I’ll feel then.” Humphrey’s eyes widened an his cock stiffened as if on a hair trigger and he couldn’t disguise the little moan his mouth made as he thought about James’ threat.
“Yes please! I’m sure you’ll feel the most fun you’ve ever felt. Do you want me on my back or my front?” Humphrey figured he might as well go for broke and test the waters, holding James’ gaze whilst he allowed his words to fully sink in and to see if James took the bait.
“You really want this? Want me? Like that?”
“You have no idea how much I want you.” Humphrey breathed, sliding his hands across James’ hips, working his fingers under his t-shirt to touch soft warm skin. “How much I want to feel you over me, on me, inside me.” Humphrey ever so slowly moved himself closer to James until they were chest to chest and groin to groin, and he was very aware that he was pressing his erection against his boyfriend. “I want to be yours just as much as you are mine.” He tilted his head and captured James’ lips, the kiss lazy but deep with tongues battling for dominance in a slow dance.
James pulled his lips from Humphrey’s and slid a hand across his waist, fingertips just brushing the top of his bum cheek through the cotton of his sleep shorts.
“Will you… will you guide me… through it?”
“Of course. I’ll guide you every step of the way if you want me to.” When James nodded, Humphrey grinned and pressed a soft kiss to James’ lips. “Do you want to wear a condom?” Humphrey reached across to the bedside drawers and opened the top drawer, pulling out their current bottle of lube and then pausing whilst James thought about the question.
“Do you want me to wear one? I know it can get messy if I finish inside you.”
“I’ll get one out. The choice is yours baby. And not to sway your decision in any way but I can’t think of anything hotter than being filled with your cum for the first time.” James’ eyes widened as he looked down at his boyfriend and then to the condom he held in his hand, trying to work out what the right answer to this question would be.
“Do you want me to cum inside you?”
“Yes.”
“Okay.” Humphrey put the condom back into the bedside drawer and turned to James, almost throwing himself at the older man, barely containing his excitement that this was actually going to happen. Within moments James had flipped them until Humphrey was on his back and as he grinned down at the younger man he tugged off his own t-shirt before pulling off Humphrey’s sleep shorts and feeling his mouth dry at the erotic image before him.
The younger man’s thighs were parted to fit James between them and were resting on his thighs so they were partially pulled back, leaving Humphrey open and accessible and James felt a coil of heat fill his stomach at the image of his usually more dominant boyfriend suddenly in the more vulnerable position.
“You good baby?” Humphrey checked in as he could see the cogs whirring in James’ brain and although he nodded he still seemed a little at a loss of what to do next. “I think I’d really like to feel your fingers inside me sweetheart. You’re gonna have to stretch me so I can take your beautiful cock.” James nodded emphatically and reached across to retrieve the bottle of lube, squirting a generous amount on his finger and in his nerves pressed it directly onto Humphrey, making the younger man tense and flinch at the temperature.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m a little nervous.” Humphrey noticed a slight tremor in James’ hands and smiled softly before capturing his hands until he met his gaze.
“It’s just me James, just Humph. The man you sleep next to every night, the man you shower with most days, and the man who loves everything single thing about you. You have no need to be nervous. Just feel and enjoy it, if I’m not enjoying it I’ll tell you.” James nodded and took a deep breath when Humphrey let go of his hands and then brought the fingers of his right hand down between Humphrey’s legs, his middle finger pressing softly against the tight ring of muscle. “That’s it baby.” James massaged the muscles and then ever so gently slipped the tip of his finger inside and his own eyes widened as he looked at Humphrey, the younger man’s eyes a little wide at the sensation of his boyfriend entering his body, something he hadn’t done since the night he had his heart attack.
“I’m… I’m inside you.” James whispered, his eyes glued to where his finger was inside Humphrey, watching as the furl of muscle accepted the intrusion and then mesmerising himself by pushing that finger in and out.
“Yeah you are.” Humphrey breathed, enjoying the sensation but also a little in disbelief that James was actually doing this to him. James checked in with his boyfriend before adding a second and later a third finger when he could feel Humphrey was ready for them, his lover almost panting at the sensation of James slowly working him open with an increasing number of fingers.
“Baby boy you need to get inside me or I’m going to cum before we get to the good stuff.” James looked up from where he was sliding three fingers into Humphrey and noticed the look on his boyfriend’s face and felt a shiver of pride race up his spine, knowing that he had managed to turn his usually in control lover into a puddle of pleasure.
“Okay sweetheart.” James slowly removed his fingers from his boyfriend and collected another generous fingerful of lube before coating himself and then blowing out a slow and steady breath, calming himself before he took the final step. Humphrey watched as James centred himself and took a moment to fold a pillow under his hips to give James a much better angle. “Okay I’m ready.” James pressed the head of his cock against Humphrey and then paused for a moment, taking another deep breath and locking his eyes with Humphrey’s.
“Are you sure?”
“Go on sweetheart. I want to feel you filling me up.” James nodded and then pushed his hips forward, sliding halfway into Humphrey and letting out a noise that he didn’t think he’d ever made before, a cross between a moan, a groan, and a sob.
“Oh you’re tight. Hot. How do you… it’s so… oh good lord.” James found that his hips seemed to have a mind of their own and he pushed deeper into Humphrey, his hips pressing against his boyfriend’s arse as he gave him everything he had. Humphrey couldn’t help but groan at the feeling of James filling him, it had been a long while since he had been the bottom and his muscles were probably going to launch a protest as soon as James left his body, but for now he was enjoying the feel of his lover inside him for the first time ever. “Are you okay?”
“I’m great baby. You feel amazing.”
“I don’t know how long I’m going to last.” James whispered as if he was trying not to let anyone else hear, like it was a secret just between the two of them. “What if I cum really quickly?”
“It doesn’t matter when you cum. I just want you to enjoy this.” James nodded and then leant forward, planting his hands by Humphrey’s head and shuffling the younger man’s hips further up, lodging himself deeper inside, causing them both to moan at the sensation. “Oh God!” James slid his hips back and quickly slid back inside, establishing a steady rhythm which had him gritting his teeth to prevent a premature end whilst Humphrey was clutching at the bedsheets, his head tilted back and the muscles and tendons in his neck taut as he took his boyfriend for the first ever time in their relationship.
“Humph I need you to cum soon because I ….oh sweet lord…. I’m so close.”
“Please.” James wrapped a hand around Humphrey’s copiously weeping cock and shivered when his boyfriend growled at the sensation. “Keep going baby.” Humphrey gasped and James grinned, a renewed sense of confidence rocketing through him as he gripped his cock, the feel of the hot thick erection in his hand now as familiar to him as his own, whilst pushing his own cock inside him, making him moan. “God, baby boy, you’re going to make me cum.”
“I want you…. to cum.” James gasped as he continued to thrust into Humphrey, the familiar tingles that signalled his orgasm beginning to fizzle through his body and he really wanted Humphrey to cum before him; Humphrey always made sure he came first so James thought it only right that he did it the same way. James sped up the movement of his fist and beamed when he felt Humphrey throb in his palm as he knew that he was about to cum, however what he hadn’t anticipated was how overwhelming the sensation would be of Humphrey’s muscles clamping down around him.
As soon as Humphrey began to cum, so did James, his body totally betraying him as the heat and tightness of his boyfriend overwhelmed his senses. He emptied everything he had into Humphrey and totally missed the large volume of cum that splattered his chest and Humphrey’s, sandwiching it between them as he slumped forward and lay gasping on Humphrey’s chest like a dying fish.
“Baby are you okay?” Humphrey ran his fingers softly down James’ back and the older man only nodded but Humphrey ideally needed James to pull out of his body as it was starting to feel a bit unpleasant. “Sweetheart I need you to pull out.” James grunted and shifted his hips back until he left Humphrey’s body before settling back against his boyfriend’s chest, causing Humphrey to wince and groan at the less than pleasant sensation.
“Sorry. Am sorry.” James rolled off Humphrey and off the bed, landing on wobbly feet with even wobblier knees as he hastened to the bathroom, intent on getting a cloth to clean them both up, which is what Humphrey always did for him.
Once they were both wiped clean, James slid cautiously onto the bed, sitting beside Humphrey’s still sprawled body.
“Are you okay? Did I hurt you?” James tentatively laid a hand on Humphrey’s stomach, stroking the warm skin and feeling his breathing slowly return to normal. The younger man opened his arms and beckoned James into them, a soft lazy smile on his face.
“Come here baby, you’re negating on my post coital snuggles.” James moved across the bed and slid in beside Humphrey, reaching down to tug the duvet up and over them both before pulling the younger man to lay against his chest. “Perfect.” Humphrey pressed a soft kiss to James’ bare chest and rested his cheek over his heart.
“Was it….”
“It was amazing. Everything I knew it would be. And I can’t wait for us to do it again.” James hugged Humphrey closer and dropped a kiss to the dark curls atop his head, trying to hide his tired smile.
“You’re clearly trying to kill me. But I’m glad it was you, you made my first time everything I had hoped it would be.”