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Performing acts of self pleasure wasn’t something the silver monkey of the team was very familiar with, much less so being intimate with another. Antauri would be highly unlikely to admit to anyone that he had considered and tried to make attempts of…pleasuring himself… back when he was still partially organic and possessed those parts. Though any attempt that had been made on the rare occasion never lasted long or finished due to a few factors.
One, danger could have struck any moment, and that was not an ideal position to be in to prepare to fight.
Second, the Veron mystic teachings discouraged such acts, for ‘purity’ and to not be distracted by such urges.
Third, there was the paranoia along with the danger of just any of the team, especially Chiro, getting into his room during the time… his intimate actions. He would never be able to live it down if any of them saw him in such a situation.
Lastly, Antauri simply just, didn’t… have the actual urge too, his intentions for wanting to make the attempts were more curiosity based rather than…urge based. Which may be why all of the few attempts felt like a waste of his time and little energy he spent.
Then becoming the silver monkey, fully robotic, there were no parts to…experiment with. The robotic body also had no hormones or anything. No reason for him to even have urges like that in the first place now.
Or so he thought.
It started with just a…strange feeling, here and there occasionally, mainly felt in his lower regions. Antauri didn’t have a way of properly describing it, at one point approaching Otto And Gibson after he had noticed it for a while, thinking it was something wrong with the silver monkey systems.
Otto didn’t find anything wrong with Antauri’s systems, but the silver monkey did realize something else… something he did not bring up with neither Gibson or Otto during the check. The feeling increased at certain points and Antauri had even found other… unusual thoughts popping into his head at times.
Thoughts he was not used to having. Thoughts he did not understand where they were coming from, but there was one logical conclusion for what Antauri felt he was experiencing.
Antauri was…horny?
Based on the feelings thoughts, timing of both, and other factors it made some sense to him that’s what was going on. But it also didn’t make sense over why now if he didn’t really have these feeling before, was it because the danger had ended and had been over for awhile? Was it purely random? Pondering in his room, trying to make sense over the situation, and what he should do if anything, how would he do anything? Antauri could feel his systems heating up at just the embarrassment of the situation. The silver monkey had been trying to ignore whenever the…urge or feeling made itself known, but that hadn’t been working, if anything it had been getting harder to ignore.
Antauri had considered mentioning it to Gibson, but with all the variables it felt more likely Gibson wouldn’t have answers and Antauri was not too keen on telling him or experiencing Gibson’s reaction. Since this was more…. Mental, psychological? Antauri knocked Otto off the list as his specialty was mechanics and also another reason, but he wasn’t going to delve into that part yet.
Nova and Chiro were definite no’s.
There was Sprx….
Sprx wouldn’t have answers as to why…but something gave Antauri the feeling Sprx would be more likely to at least have ideas on how to…deal with the feelings. Antauri could partially imagine Sprx’s reaction if approached about this… subject.
No no he didn’t need to inform anyone on the team about his realization. He would deal with this private issue alone, he just needed to distract himself with other things, meditate and clear his mind.
As if any of those had been helping so far.
Antauri sighed and walked over to his sleeping pod for the night. Laying back and switching over to a low power sleep mode. Except his thoughts didn’t stop, nor was his body really properly going into a sleep mode, his conscious and subconscious thoughts continuing to inactivate it. The silver monkey having thoughts such as what if he did bring it up to Otto in regards to… body modifications? He had brushed that thought as quickly as it came, his body overheating again at the thought of Otto putting together even just designs or concepts for how to give Antauri…parts..
The silver monkey knew the green one would more than likely be willing to… and with how Otto could be sometimes possibly even ecstatic if Antauri brought it up… Antauri didn’t know if that would make it worse or not.
Then the worse thoughts came, of what if he did approach Otto about it, Otto did build parts and modified them onto Antauri… and what if part of that process included testing with hands on help from Otto… touching him in certain ways…
Antauri’s eyes opened quickly and he shot out of his pod. What was he thinking!? Antauri was shocked at what he just imagined, if he wasn’t in sleep mode now he was sure his systems were going to crash from how much he was over heating now. He was finding it annoying that his emotional state could affect his systems in such a way.
What was even more annoying was his body didn’t get the memo that those thoughts were NOT the ones to be having right now.
Very very much did not get the memo… the sensation was getting unbearable, there was no way he was going to be able to asleep tonight… maybe he could just take a walk.
And that’s how the silver monkey found himself outside Sprx’s door. Debating on knocking or just going back to his room to be alone with his thoughts again. The twinge in his lower body was telling him maybe that wasn’t the best idea. Taking a breath Antauri raised a fist and knocked on the metal door. Maybe Sprx wouldn’t be awake or would shoo him off. Antauri was about to turn around when suddenly the door opened, revealing the red monkey.
“Huh… Antauri? It’s late whaddya want?” The red monkey asked, giving Antauri a puzzled look.
“I-I…May I come in to discuss it?”
Sprx gave Antauri another confused look but shrug and gestured for him to come in, the door closing afterwards. Once the two of them were in the room they stared at each other, Sprx waiting for Antauri to say something, though noticing that Antauri seemed to be avoiding direct eye contact.
“Well, what is it? What’s so important it couldn’t wait until morning?” Sprx questioned.
Antauri felt his body heating up again, he’d made a mistake, he should have just gone back to his room. Approaching Sprx or any of the team was highly inappropriate, “I-I apologize it’s nothing I will just take my leav-“
“Uh no. No you’re not leaving? Not after you just knocked on my door in the middle of the night with no explanation, looking like…that, I mean you don’t look different but your vibes are off, something is wrong. I don’t know why you came to me of all people but I ain’t stupid enough to just let you leave.”
If Antauri wasn’t so anxious, he would have smiled or felt a little proud, he felt like years ago Sprx would have just let him go without much thought for the other’s feeling. Except right now he sort of wished that had been the current case.
“I…I assure you it’s nothing, just…silly thoughts… I apologize for waking you.”
“No, no no no, we’re not doing this Antauri. I know better than to just let you be in your own thoughts by yourself, if there’s something you want to talk about go ahead, even if it is silly, you don’t need to be this stoic guy all the time, no one can be level headed or whatever all the time. If you don’t talk to me, I’m going to let the others know something’s up with you, and you know everyone isn’t going to let it go if they get worried. So talk Antauri.”
Well that certainly didn’t go as he hoped.
“I…it’s personal…very personal, so I would very much appreciate it if you didn’t get the others involved…especially not Chiro… I… it’s very quite rather personal and intimate. Which is why I am hesitant… but you feel like the best one to approach for this… situation.”
The red monkey was still confused, Antauri was being way too vague. What did he mean Sprx felt like the best to talk to about whatever Antauri was going on about? “Antauri start making sense and spit it out, I know you like being vague to teach people stuff you want them to figure out for themselves, but I don’t think this is a teaching moment. Nor am I playing twenty questions.”
The silver monkey took a breath before speaking, why he did so when he doesn’t have lungs is not a question for now. “I… have been having…new feelings in my body…. And I don’t know how to…deal with them.”
Sprx blinked.
“Feelings? What on Shuggazoom do you mean? That sounds like an Otto thing if you’ve got weird feelings going on in your b-OH…. Oh… oh monkey doodle you’re uh, you’re not talking about uh well… ugh now I’m beating around the bush, but… you’re coming to me about…sexual feelings?” Sprx couldn’t believe what Antauri was coming to HIM about, and the other monkey was saying g they were…new feelings? Sprx both found it not surprising but still hard to believe that it was possible, but it made sense thinking about Antauri.
“You’re saying you’ve seriously never had…urges or anything before?” The red monkey asked, getting a head shake response from the other.
“No, nothing ever like this…back before I…made my sacrifice… I had… experimented slightly but not because of any feeling like this, just pure curiosity that led nowhere… and now that I am having the …urges as you put them… I do not have my..:parts or any parts for that matter or even the knowledge of why this is happening and how to deal with…it.”
There goes never admitting he had explored that side of himself before.
“Well uh…I’m not genius or expert on whatever…you have going on… or mechanics or whatever… but uh I mean you still have a weird sense of taste and touch and stuff right? You’ve mentioned that before that it’s not quite the same but it’s not gone either? Would uh…” Sprx paused, he could not believe he was about to give Antauri advice on how to masturbate.
“I mean…did you try just… humping something? Or just… rubbing down there? Surely you didn’t come to me without trying anything right?”
Antauri felt like a fool.
Antauri hadn’t thought of options like that, he had been focused on the parts he was missing, not that he had anything in his room that would be suitable for the first action Sprx suggested.
“…I told you I was here for silly reasons…”
Sprx face palmed, “yeah, I know that now. Any other obvious things you need the answer too before you go spank the monkey? Or you gonna ask me more stuff and tell me about some weird secret kinky fantasy I don’t wanna hear about.”
Antauri blinked “I don’t… kinky?”
Sprx nervously chuckled a little bit. “Hahh sorry I guess you’re a little too…innocent? For that, if you ever look for…material to help online, that’s uh, something you’ll run into….anyways uh you can go on and get out now! I’m going back to bed!” Sprx did not want to get any further into that right now than what he already said without thinking.
“Oh. Yes I will let you get to that. Apologies for the unnecessary awkward interruption.” Antauri quickly turned to take his leave.
“It’s uh alright Antauri. Sometimes getting reminders you’re not all that different is nice sometimes not this particular but it fits into that in a weird way. Okay well night! Don’t have too much fun hehheh.” Sprx felt the need to make the joke, he wasn’t too fond of imagining that was what Antauri was going to go do right this moment, but he still found comedy in it.
Antauri did not even acknowledge his joke and quickly left, returning to his own room. At this point not even thinking about acting on any feeling or urges at the moment, with the awkward conversation the feelings for now seemed to have settled. Antauri entering his room again and going back to his pod, laying back and going back into the low power mode, thinking he’d be able to sleep now.
Antauri was going to rip his head systems out.
At this point he considered just shutting himself completely down and letting someone find him into the morning to reboot him… but with the conversation he just had with Sprx, he did NOT want the red monkey thinking he had ‘too much fun’ and overloaded his systems.
If Antauri could blush, his face would be as red as Sprx at the moment as he looked down, considering his option. While he had done a similar action before with his original body, that was out of curiosity with no real drive behind it. The thought now of touching himself in such an intimate way felt more intense… would it even work? What if it did override his systems and shut him down… he’d hope he’d at least reboot himself back up.
If he did this and it went too good and he shut down, there’s no way Sprx would let him live it down, he wouldn’t tease him in front of the others directly, but he knows Sprx wouldn’t let him forget it….but if he doesn’t try he won’t know.
Letting some of the thoughts he had been pushing away start to stick around in his head and expand, Go beyond just the initial thoughts… get more detailed and… let his hand reach down and graze where his parts would be if he had any, a shiver going through his body.
Just that slight graze was something.
Antauri bit his lip slightly grazing his fingers again before putting more effort and pressure into it. It made little sense but he definitely was feeling something. This was nothing like his previous attempts. Resting his hand down below and rubbing two of his fingers across his metallic surface, letting fantasies play in his mind.
Antauri tried different maneuvers as he went on, finding himself trying to hold back making noise, the walls may be thick and dense but the rooms weren’t completely soundproof, last thing he wanted was anyone walking in thinking he was in danger.
But dang monkey doodle he was having a time right now,, rubbing circles around with his fingers on his crotch area. Thinking about how it would feel if someone else did this to him, or if he did ask Otto to make him parts, and let Otto test it with his own hands at that… Otto would take great pride in making sure everything was perfect, Antauri knows he would, the green monkey would be so caring about it, there might be unexpected design elements with Otto being the one doing it but damn it would still be good. Otto’s hands would be good… Otto would be-
If Antauri wasn’t getting so deep into his self pleasure session, he would feel more guilty about these thoughts, for now though the only thing on his mind was feeling these sensations from his own touch and feeling so good. At some point he forgot he was holding back making noises until he let out a bigger moan, one hand quickly reaching up to cover his own mouth as the other kept going down below. A thought coming to him and with just his busy hand, activating ghost mode to phase through his own body, seeing if the sensations would continue if he fools around inside.
If this course of action wasn’t going to make his systems overload and shut down, he didn’t know if anything would. The sounds that started coming out of him were practically out of his control… aside from that fact he was causing the action that was causing the noises but that’s besides the point.
Antauri didn’t know if it was the sensation of his fingers phasing through his groin or the wiggled around inside him that was doing it, but he kept on doing both, sliding his phasing fingers in and out, moving them around while inside himself. what if he’s let Otto in him like this….His body trembling, almost continuous moans muffled by his hands, back arching…. He felt his systems working over time, everything was overloading but instead of being cautious and stopping or slowing down, he kept at it. Sliding and rubbing and going faster and faster, harder and harder until…
He opened his eyes. He was on the floor, Fingers still inside himself, the lights in his room were on, something pulled out of his head and red body came into view.
Oh Shuggazoom.
The silver monkey quickly unphases his fingers out of himself. Antauri didn’t need to look up to feel the smirk on Sprx’s face.
“You’re so lucky I was able to convince the others to let just me come check on you. Didn’t I tell you not to have too much fun? You got creative quick.”
“We’re not talking about this.”
“Oh but we are, we are not forgetting this, the image of walking into your room with your fingers stuck inside your-“
“We don’t need to discuss this”
“Oh but we do. What are you going to do next time huh? Let someone else find you? Mr. I don’t know how to deal with my urges?”
“….” Antauri did not know how to respond to that.
“Yeah that’s right, you can’t forget this and I’m not letting you either.”