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He didn’t lock the fucking window.
It wasn’t as if he ever needed to lock it since the first time the wraith used the shortcut to his room she kept using it, giving him information about all the things going on in Ketterdam. It was also impossible for anyone besides her to reach the window in question. So he wasn’t worried about other intruders. Inej had been on the seas for over a year though until the wraith returned this morning now proudly sitting in berth 22.
He should’ve just locked it...
She was supposed to be at Wylan and Jesper’s tonight. No, tonight AND tomorrow night. She told him at the docks’ this morning that she wanted to get some rest since she only just returned.
Kaz understood, he wouldn’t deny Inej a bit of luxury at the van Eck house especially after the time she had at sea. He knew she loved what she did, but that didn't mean it was always easy. It was hard work.
He maybe wanted to ask her for some simple jobs later this week. But frankly, he just wanted to spend time with her. He just missed her a lot.
Though for some reason, he now was staring at her wide eyes through the window.
Normally he wouldn’t mind being stared at by her, he knew what he felt for her, and what she felt for him. They made that clear to each other the first time Inej returned from her maiden voyage. They both agreed that even though they were more ‘’involved’’ than before, her not being seen as much as possible was still better for both of their safeties. Especially now she gained her own dangerous reputation outside Ketterdam.
The only problem he had with her staring was that his current state of being was a bit… compromising.
In his defense, he did say he was busy this evening. He stared back at her, unsure of what to do.
a few minutes earlier
He was slouched in his chair. His coat en vet laying in a heap on the floor while the first 3 buttons of his white shirt were open. His hair was a mess, his face and chest were dripping in sweat and one hand was firm around his cock, the tip leaking with pre cum
He was pumping himself steadily, he started bringing himself closer and closer before he slowed down. He wanted, needed to relax after today, he wanted to make it last as long as possible. He still couldn't touch Inej, but lately, he started to want it more and more, resulting in his body reacting at the most unfortunate times.
To say he was an expert on the matter was an overstatement, but after a talk with Inej about physical touch, and overhearing some crude stories about masturbation from the other members of the dregs. He tried to touch himself just a few months ago. Before he wanted to even think about attempting to be physical with Inej, he thought it’d be best to start with himself.
It wasn’t without struggle. The first time he tried he felt so stupid, he also felt embarrassed he didn't know as much as the other men his age. How was he supposed to do this? Luckily he was dangerous enough so no one questioned his lack of partners.
He understood now though, it felt... good. He realized this was normal. But even then, someone with his reputation couldn’t be caught doing something this...human.
He tried to be as quiet as possible and locked his door so well even the highest members of the dregs couldn’t pick the lock if they wanted to. The way he entered the slat, glaring at the rest of the members that day ensured they wouldn’t knock on the door either. ‘’Dirtyhands had a shit day, best leave him the fuck alone.’’
His breaths were getting faster and he threw his head back against his chair, pumping harder and harder until he suddenly heard an unfamiliar scuffle outside his window. It sounded like someone slipping.
Oh no
He forgot to lock the window.
Pleasure forgotten, his mind went in every direction. How much could she see? Did his desk block the view of his cock? he was still so..so, the head was leaking. He was already SO close.
Okay, stay calm Brekker. Just pretend nothing happened. He snapped his attention back to the forgotten papers and half-empty whiskey glass in front of him. He moved closer to his desk so it wouldn’t be as noticeable, using one hand to zip up his pants.
He didn’t hear her, but he sensed her climbing inside his room.
‘Nej.'' He said. Trying his hardest to sound casual but cringed when the word left his mouth. He didn’t sound composed at ALL.
Oh, ghezen he was so caught.
Usually, the silences between them were comfortable. It was easy just spending time with her. She at the window sharpening her knives, and him going over numbers for The Crow Club. This silence however was deafening, he didn’t dare to look at her.
‘’Kaz’’ she almost whispered. He loved the way she said his name, she dragged it out slightly, making sure she got his attention. She didn't know she always had his attention one way or the another.
What business?
‘’Kaz!’ ’ she giggled, his name on her soft lips. She…she giggled? Focus Brekker!
‘’I’m sorry, I should have sent a note, especially when you didn’t expect me.’’ He finally looked up at her, his darling Inej. Her black hair flowed down in waves over her shoulders. He wondered how it felt in his hands, it looked like silk. He wondered why she let it flow free tonight. He liked it, a lot. She was wearing a black sweater with a new pair of the same tight leggings she wore this morning.
His cock twitched inside his trousers, he moved his legs slightly and tried to focus on something else. He looked at her eyes and saw that the dark circles under her eyes she wore this morning were gone, it seemed she got a few hours of sleep in already, he felt relieved at that.
‘’It-It’s okay.’’ Did she sound a bit... shy?
His mouth opened and closed a few times, unsure of what to say. To say he was embarrassed was the understatement of the year, he was also pretty sure he was as red as Wylan’s hair.
‘’It’s okay you know?’’ she said again. She didn’t sound angry thank whoever. Was it stupid of him to think she might be? He didn’t mean to startle her, he hoped the sight didn’t make her relive any bad memories.
‘’I’m-I’m sorry, you didn’t need to see that, are you okay?’’
‘’Kaz, I’m fine!’’ she laughed at him.
Then she smiled at him, she was actually smiling, her cheeks flushed.
‘’Please don’t be embarrassed, a girl breaking into a boy's office/bedroom every day, this was bound to happen eventually I guess. Even if the boy in question is you’’ She giggled some more as she walked closer and sat on the edge of his desk now having a clear view of his ‘’situation’’
Was she teasing him or flirting with him?
‘’Did you at least enjoy yourself until I so rudely interrupted you?
Okay, so she was doing both, just great.
You are a devious one wraith, but yes… I did. She quirked an eyebrow at the mention of her old nickname.
‘’Well that’s good to hear, you looked like you did.’’ Her eyes moved down slowly from his eyes to his neck, chest, and then slowly to his crotch. He swallowed.
‘’You’re still hard are you?’’ His eyes followed hers down towards his tenting trousers.
‘fraid so.
‘’Well, I shall leave you to it then, get in some more hours of sleep. Just wanted to check up on you’’ She hopped off the desk nonchalantly and walked halfway to the window until she stopped.
He didn’t say a word, he was at war with himself. He was desperate for release, he couldn’t touch her yet, and he didn’t know if she was comfortable with that either. The best option, for now, was for her to go so he could get himself off.
But he didn’t want her to go, he hoped she didn’t want to leave either.
‘’Or I could stay- if you want? I won’t touch you.’’
Yes, yes. He wanted her to stay, but…
‘’Can I see you?’’ She asked quietly, but he still heard her loud and clear. One of the things he realized he loved about her was her ability to know exactly what she wanted.
You want to see me?
‘’yes, only if you want me to’’ she turned around and took a few steps back until she was resting on the window sill. Her eyes looked darker than usual. Half lidded. Desire, clear as day.
‘’You can say no, no pressure. Then I’ll go back to Wylan’s and meet you in the mor-
Stay…Please, stay.
‘’okay’’ She smiled and leaned back against the window putting her feet up, like preparing to watch a show.
He didn’t realize he wanted it this badly, for her to see him undone like this. Bare and vulnerable, lost in pleasure. He couldn’t touch her but the thought of being watched by her, Inej being here with him while he took something back that he hadn’t had the chance to experiment with within his earlier years. That got him excited, to say the least.
She always looked like a saint but in the soft orange glow of the room and the way her hair fell she looked positively godly. Her dark eyes focused on him and she quirked her head to the side. ''a challenge''
He reached his hand to his chest, undoing another button, then another. He touched his own chest softly, his fingers moving on the faint lines of the scars he’s gotten. some old some new. He gently touched his nipple before pinching it slightly.
He saw her take a deep breath, it seems she wanted this too. ‘’Does that feel good?’’ he heard her ask.
‘’Yes, it does.’’ his rasp more pronounced than usual
He scooted back a little, and palmed his crotch through the fabric, he leaned his head back as he started looking at her. She bit her lip. If she started to play dirty he wouldn’t last long, that was for sure. He didn’t mind one bit though.
He breathed deeply and pulled his zipper down, gently pulling out his still hard cock, he closed his eyes and touched the head before spreading the precum over his length.
He did a few experimental strokes before speeding up. He opened his eyes and saw Inej staring at him with awe.
‘’Saints, you look gorgeous Kaz.’’
He moaned, mouth falling open.
‘’ahh please.. keep talking, close’’ he said as he picked up speed.
‘’You’re so beautiful. Does that feel good? Do you like me watching you like this? Seeing you come undone? ''
Yes, yes! Watch me, I’m so hot, so hard. Want to.. to come, please my darling Inej.
He saw her getting up from the window sill and slowly walking towards him, he started fisting his cock now, he stared at her, brain foggy with lust.
‘’I won’t touch you’’ he loved that she reminded him, he trusted her with his life. But he didn’t quite understand what she was doing until...
‘’look at me Kaz’’ she grabbed the hem of her blouse and pulled it over her head. She wasn’t wearing her bindings
She stood half-naked in front of him. Her coppery brown skin was even more radiant in the light. Her breasts, perfect handfuls. She was toned, strong, covered in scars, just like him.
She was glorious.
She leaned down over his desk, just a few inches from his face as she started squeezing the nipple of one of her breasts.
‘’You like this don’t you? Why don’t you watch me try it, Kaz? Hmm?’’
she took her other finger into her mouth and gently started sucking while gently massaging her breast with the other. Never breaking eye contact while doing so.
He didn’t need more than that, as he moaned her name. He threw his head back and white spurts of cum landed on his hand.
’Nej!! Ahhh, ah aaah! please!’’
She helped him through the aftershocks.
‘’That’s it, beautiful. you’re so good. Yes, keep doing that, you're doing wonderfully Kaz.'' ’’ Inej her voice was like music to his ears. He loved her, he loved her so much. She told him he was beautiful, she sounded so...
The last thing he saw when he came back to earth, was Inej’s teasing smile before she headed out into the night. ''I'll see you tomorrow''
He'll never lock that window again, will he?