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how can you even begin to explain.
to someone who has not even been as much as touched, as graced, by the sword of anxiety.
the way it bubbles up and sways, pulls and tugs.
makes you lose all sight of what really matters, of doing what you can do.
the hesitancy, the sheer stupidity.
the feeling of being trapped in a body that can’t move.
can’t breathe can’t speak can’t do.
but you carry on anyway.
because the world doesn’t stop for people who have lost their footing.
what is a breather, a second to collect your thoughts?
non-existent, in a world that is always turning.
but you are magnus bane. alec lightwood. maia roberts. simon lewis. maryse trueblood.
a leader in a ruthless society, formal or not.
fear has entrenched itself in your veins, whoever you are, and it’s not going away.
but maybe those you love can help you through another day.