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Six Blind Men Walk into a Montréal Locker Room by Obsidian_Arrowhead
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Jul 2026
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Because it's a joke, right? They're all just joking.
It's funny, Hollander. Keep up.
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love in exile has nowhere to go by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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“We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”
It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.
He can’t breathe.
(Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)
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**MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS - DEAD DOVE: DON'T EAT**
*Internalised homophobia and conversion "therapy" are the main parts of this story. I promise a happy ending - Ilya is going to get a queer and allied posse together to fight this, but it's going to be a rough road getting there*Shane had wanted to help Ilya, that’s why he did what Ilya wanted. That’s why he took off his clothes and why he told Ilya to tell him everything in Russian. He wanted Ilya to feel better. Shane could bear pain, being thrown into the boards was practically a daily ritual. The few fights he’d had on the ice, off the ice even, paled in comparison to the fear of the pain he put Ilya through. When Ilya told him everything in Russian, Shane knew two things: Ilya was in pain, and Ilya wanted Svetlana.
Afraid of hurting Ilya, the disappointment of his mother, the embarrassment of the league and his teammates finding out, Shane makes a radical decision - he admits he's gay, and decides to stop. He embarks on a treatment of conversion therapy to make everything better for everyone.
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Shatterproof by ilyasweed
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
08 Jun 2026
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Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.
The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.
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you light my fire like a cigarette by no_ilya_thats_gross
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Jun 2026
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“Please,” he says finally, voice breaking as he gives in. “Fuck, please, Rozanov, I’m gonna—”
Rozanov pulls all the way back, mouth releasing his cock with a noise that makes Shane’s hips rock up into nothing.
“Rozanov,” he begs again.
“Hmm?” Rozanov asks, kissing Shane’s shaking thigh gently. “You need something?”
“You— fuck— you said I could come,” Shane says, trying to keep the accusatory note out of his voice.
“Mhm. When you say my name, yes?”
“I did!” Shane insists, just a hint of a whine in his tone now. Rozanov smirks at him.
“Oh, sweetheart,” he says. “My first name.”
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Ilya does something a little different on tuna melt day.
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When the Past Enters the Present by n8sFics
Fandoms: 클라우드 | Lost in the Cloud (Webcomic)
19 Mar 2026
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Cirrus knows something is off with Skylar—especially his past. But when Skylar runs into someone he never expected to ever see again, it makes Skylar break down.
Now he has to come out to Cirrus about the things he went through.
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Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.
Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.
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Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.A slice of life.
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Oscar finds Lando in the quiet after his DNF at the 2025 Dutch Grand Prix
It wasn’t pretty.
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- Part 1 of Adventures of Neurodivergent LandOscar
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Remember Us As War (but call us forgiveness) by Anyaparadox
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
11 Jun 2022
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Following the devastation of the Battle of Hogwarts, The Wizarding Population Growth Act is put into effect. All witches and wizards will be matched with their most compatible partner. Failure to comply will not be tolerated. Survival is key.
Hermione reminds herself of this. Survival. She can fix this, if only she can survive. The war has made this a task she is equipped for. Marrying Draco Malfoy will hardly be the worst thing she's ever endured.
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- Part 1 of Remember Us As War
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looking for a breath of a life by WeaverOfTheNight
Fandoms: Critical Role: Aramán (Web Series)
14 Jul 2026
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“Julien,” Occtis tried, his voice barely over a whisper. “Do you want to kill me?”
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Or: When the new Seekers find a temporary reprieve as guests in King Gus’ castle, Occtis tries to wrestle with the haunting memories of what happened to him. As he gives in to the panic, he isn’t expecting Julien to even care, much less to actually help him get through it.
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Fic title from “Washing machine heart” by Mitski.
Adrian hated the alien. He hated it as childish as that was. He reviled the creature. His mate had returned from space after decades only to call someone else “My sweet,” “My love,” and “My star.” And worst of all, Rocky was saying these things to the fucking alien!
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Adrian feels replaced and everyone is bad at communication. And also Adrian is a really unreliable narrator. Something is not as it seems.Series
- Part 2 of My anon PHM fics!
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Beat My Heart Into The Ground, I'm Already Dead by Kingdom_Nerds
Fandoms: Twisted-Wonderland (Video Game)
14 Jul 2026
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Overblot is the worst possible thing a mage can experience.
It was something that had been hammered into Cater’s head as a mage himself. Many didn’t survive. In fact, Cater had never heard of any mage that survived. Many died before they could be saved, a faceless monster sucking the magic and lifeforce out before the overblot could be reversed. If such a thing is even possible.
It was one thing to hear about an overblot. The horrific damage it did to the body, whether the mage be human, beastfolk, fae, or mer. It didn’t matter.
It was a completely different thing to see it in person. Especially when it involved a person he knew.
Or: Overblots have severe and life-altering physical consequences. Riddle is the first victim of such consequences.
Or or: If TWST was allowed to be MUCH darker
(Based on Selverist saatan's overblot AU on TikTok please go show them lots of love!!)
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The Woes of a Vampire in Space by Dailydoseofboops
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga)
08 Jun 2026
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Despite how desperately he craved connection, Hitoshi forced himself into solitude as much as possible ever since he first fed. He figured it would be worth it to avoid hurting others, even if that was unavoidable at times.
Being a vampire in space, however, was much more complicated.
In space, his instincts screamed that everything and everyone was prey. Almost all of the aliens he came in contact with were fragile, even with him holding back. The ones in the arena were the either even more so; small and brittle. Or they were the only ones that didn't immediately give way under his hands; armored and dense.
It always left him feeling hollow and guilty when he fought. And every escape attempt ended with him returned to an increasingly reinforced cell; sedated, wounded, and muzzled. So he waited.
But now he wasn't on the weird squishy floor of the arena, and this place was too clean to be his cell. Most alarming of all, he had two new cellmates, and they smelled delicious.
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- Part 1 of Vampire Deathworlder
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Lando attaches the blushy, pouty photo and sends it, then locks his phone and drops it onto the carpet beside him, staring up at the ceiling.
There’s a pause, stretching suspiciously long.
A faint click echoes through the call. Mute. Then unmute again.
“Sorry,” OP says when he comes back, his voice rougher now. “Thought someone was at the door.”
Or: Lando loses an F1 championship and signs up for a charity Minecraft speedrunning tournament to cope with his existential crisis. Turns out his coach, faceless speedrunning champion OP81, might be a bit of a fanboy.
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he turns off the big light by gurlsrool
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
31 Mar 2026
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Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.
Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?
Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.
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Tour de Force by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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Shane had told his manager, verbatim, that he “trusts her judgment” to pick the opener for his first ever world tour.
Her “judgment” shows up to soundcheck with a parking ticket in his hand and a crimson hickey on his neck. Her “judgment” is Russian DJ, Ilya Rozanov.
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6 Degrees of Separation by LunaAtTheZoo
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Jul 2026
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Someone somewhere said any two people on earth can be linked with only 6 degrees of separation. Shane played this game in his head sometimes. He would make up maps of these links, just for the exercise of it. What he didn't do was map his connection to Ilya Rozanov, who had yet to walk into his life and crash down all 6 degrees of separation in one reckless fell swoop. Shane didn't know it, but he was already 6 degrees away from Ilya Rozanov. Because Shane was driving to Montreal, and Montreal was where a modeling agency he didn't know the name of was based. And that modeling agency recently put an ad out for a new campaign. That ad was seen by a girl named Svetlana who had curly hair and a quick, smart tongue. And that girl had called her best friend, Ilya Rozanov, and said, “There's work for you in Montreal, if you're good enough.” And Ilya Rozanov had been good enough, and was finally, finally getting out of Moscow after 19 miserable years. And those 6 degrees of separation would soon be just 1, because Ilya Rozanov & Shane Hollander would be existing in the same city without either knowing the other one existed.
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half return by thelasthour
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Jul 2026
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The locker room was buzzing in a way Shane could feel right below the surface of his skin. Not quite progressed to a humming in his bones, but getting there. His body felt like a switchboard, with every nerve lit up. He could feel the weight of each strand of hair against his scalp. The pool of sweat starting to dry against his lower back in the way that always made him want to scrub his skin raw.
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Shane learns the language for the things he’s experienced his whole life. It opens up his world but also leads him to grieve the life he could have had if he only knew the words sooner. At least he doesn’t have to navigate it alone.
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- Part 1 of half return
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something you can fix by some1_around
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
11 Jul 2026
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selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here! (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)
This series is marked as complete and maybe it is, but I might return for the occasional in-universe one-shot, so feel free to subscribe if you're interested!
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The Symptoms of Depression by CoffeeCasino
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
01 Apr 2024
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Depression has many symptoms. Each was a clear sign when you looked hard enough, but unfortunately for everyone, Isagi was good at hiding them.
Until he cracked… he couldn’t take it any more and-
“I’m sorry, Noa. I’m unfit to be a striker.” and he was falling; was the moon ever this beautiful? Or was it his final flashing moments that made it significant?
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Isagi demonstrated the symptoms of depression because the author was feeling angsty <3
WITH: 3 endings (bad, neutral and good)
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- Part 1 of Isagi's messed up life ;D
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This fic physically and mentally destroyed me, 10/10 do not recommend