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The transition from the hard, frost-chilled floor of the sitting room back to the massive four-poster bed in the guest room was a blurry, exhausted negotiation of limbs and fading adrenaline.
Draco only vaguely remembered the mechanics of it. He remembered the heavy, solid warmth of Harry’s arm around his waist, taking his weight as the right leg refused to lock. He remembered the smell of woodsmoke clinging to Harry's skin, and the quiet, breathless silence that had settled over them like a thick, heavy blanket after the kiss. It had not been a silence of regret, but a silence of absolute, staggering sensory overload.
When Draco opened his eyes the next morning, the grey London light was already pressing insistently against the edges of the heavy velvet curtains.
He was lying on his left side, his right arm resting carefully on top of the pristine white down comforter to protect the healing deltoid muscle. The deep, sickly throb of the shrapnel wound was a familiar baseline of pain, accompanied by the high, sharp, electric buzzing of the regenerating nerves in his left wrist.
But there was a new sensation, one that caused his breath to catch sharply in his throat.
A heavy, incredibly warm weight was draped across his hips.
Draco froze, his eyes widening in the dim light. He slowly, agonizingly turned his head on the soft pillow.
Harry Potter was asleep beside him.
He was not in the transfigured wooden armchair. He was not sitting guard at the door. He was lying on top of the covers on the far side of the massive mattress, fully clothed in the faded grey sweatpants and black henley he had worn the night before. He was lying on his stomach, his face turned toward Draco, his messy black hair completely obscuring his forehead and the lightning-bolt scar. One of his arms was stretched out across the expanse of the bed, his large, calloused hand resting gently, possessively over the blanket covering Draco's hip.
Draco’s heart hammered a frantic, terrified rhythm against his ribs.
The conditioned survival arithmetic of the Warrens instantly booted up, screaming at him to move, to apologize, to scramble out of the master's bed before the master woke and realized a filthy, broken Death Eater was contaminating his space. Intimacy in the slums was never free. Intimacy was a transaction, a down payment on a beating, or a debt that would be called in when he was least equipped to pay it.
But as the panic flared, the memory of the hearth rug rushed in to meet it.
I am just so incredibly, desperately glad you are alive.
The words echoed in Draco's mind, fighting against the ingrained self-loathing. The kiss hadn't been a demand. It had been a surrender. Harry had been the one trembling. Harry had been the one falling apart, trapped in the horrific hallucination of the alleyway extraction.
Draco looked at the hand resting on his hip. He didn't pull away. He didn't flinch.
He lay perfectly still, studying the sleeping Savior. In the pale morning light, stripped of the Auror badge and the political fury, Harry looked impossibly young. The deep, bruised exhaustion under his eyes was stark, a physical testament to the catastrophic magical depletion he had suffered. His breathing was slow and even, but there was a subtle, lingering tension in the line of his jaw, even in sleep.
He is afraid I'm going to disappear, Draco realized, the thought hitting him with the force of a bludgeoning hex.
The hand on his hip wasn't a claim of ownership; it was a tether. Harry was anchoring himself to the physical proof that he hadn't failed, that the extraction hadn't ended in ash.
Slowly, carefully, fighting the violent tremor in his left arm, Draco slid his hand out from beneath the comforter. His fingers, wrapped in the thick white medical bandages, hovered over Harry's wrist. He lowered his hand, letting his bandaged fingers rest lightly against Harry's pulse point.
The heartbeat was steady, strong, and undeniably real.
Harry stirred almost instantly at the touch. His brow furrowed, a soft, sleepy groan escaping his lips. His green eyes fluttered open, glassy and unfocused for a fraction of a second before the sharp, piercing clarity returned.
He registered the room. He registered the bed. And then his gaze locked onto Draco.
Harry didn't jerk his hand back. His fingers flexed slightly against the blanket over Draco's hip, a subconscious tightening of the tether.
"Morning," Harry rasped, his voice incredibly thick, a low rumble that vibrated through the mattress.
"You're in the bed," Draco stated. His voice was flat, an aristocratic deadpan acting as a desperate shield for the sheer, terrifying vulnerability he felt.
Harry blinked, looking down at his own arm stretched across the sheets, then back up to Draco's face. A faint, hesitant flush crept up the back of Harry's neck, visible even in the dim light.
"I fell asleep," Harry admitted, his voice quiet, rubbing his eyes with his free hand. "After we came upstairs. I sat down on the edge to make sure you were settled, and my core just... crashed. I didn't mean to crowd you. I can move."
Harry began to retract his arm, misinterpreting Draco's flat tone for discomfort.
"I didn't tell you to move," Draco interrupted swiftly, the words rushing out before his paranoia could stop them.
Harry froze, his arm halfway retracted. He looked at Draco, searching the grey eyes for the lie, for the hidden terror. He found none. He found only a profound, exhausted honesty.
Slowly, Harry lowered his arm back to the mattress, letting his hand rest exactly where it had been, the warmth seeping back through the heavy blanket.
"Okay," Harry murmured, a soft, genuine smile touching the corners of his mouth.
The silence that settled over them was charged, heavy with the unspoken magnitude of what had happened in the sitting room. The kiss was a massive, immovable object in the center of the room. It had fundamentally altered the architecture of their truce, and neither of them knew exactly how to navigate the new floor plan.
"The tremor is worse today," Harry noted quietly, his green eyes dropping to the bandaged hand resting against his own wrist. The fine, violent vibration was rattling Draco's fingers against Harry's skin.
Draco pulled his hand back instantly, ashamed of the weakness, tucking the trembling limb tightly against his chest. "It's the nerve potion. It means it's working. Granger said it would get worse before it gets better."
Harry sat up slowly, wincing as his stiff muscles protested the movement. He swung his legs over the side of the bed, running both hands through his messy black hair.
"It's time for the next dose," Harry said, standing up. He didn't hover. He gave Draco the physical space necessary to process the morning. "I'll go down to the kitchen and get the tray. Kreacher should have breakfast ready."
Harry walked to the door. He paused, his hand on the brass knob, looking back over his shoulder.
"Draco," Harry said softly, the Head Auror tone entirely absent. "About last night. On the rug."
Draco’s heart seized. This was it. The retraction. The apology for the momentary lapse in judgment. The Savior assuring the charity case that the boundary would be re-established.
"You don't have to apologize, Potter," Draco cut in, his voice brittle, lifting his chin defensively. "You were experiencing a severe trauma response. Magical depletion causes emotional instability. I won't hold you to it. The truce stands."
Harry turned fully around, leaning his back against the heavy oak door. He looked at Draco with an expression of such profound, unyielding frustration that Draco actually flinched.
"I am not apologizing," Harry stated flatly, his green eyes burning. "And I am not blaming it on magical depletion. I kissed you because I wanted to. I kissed you because looking at you sitting on that floor, alive, was the only thing in my life that made any sense."
Draco stared at him, his breath completely trapped in his lungs.
"I'm not taking it back, Draco," Harry continued, his voice dropping into a low, fierce register. "But I also know that you are healing. I know that you are terrified of depending on me. I am not going to push you. We take this exactly as slow as you need it to be. If you just need me to be the guy who brings the potions, I will be that guy. But do not tell me it was a mistake."
Draco swallowed hard, the dry click loud in the quiet room. The absolute, terrifying certainty in Harry's voice dismantled his defenses piece by piece.
"I don't know how to do this," Draco confessed, the whisper raw and bleeding. "I don't know how to be a person you look at like that. I am a liability. I am broken. Half my muscle tissue is held together by Granger's thread, and my magic barely sparks. I have nothing to offer you."
Harry walked back to the bed. He didn't sit down. He leaned over, placing his hands flat on the mattress on either side of Draco's hips.
"You aren't a transaction," Harry said firmly, his face inches from Draco's. "I don't want an offering. I just want you. Now, I'm going to get the oatmeal, and you are going to prepare yourself for the silver potion, because if you try to fight the spasm today, you are going to tear your shoulder again."
Harry stood up, turned on his heel, and walked out of the room, the door clicking shut behind him.
Draco sat in the center of the massive bed, his chest heaving, his face burning with a hot, desperate flush. The panic was still there, a low hum in his veins, but it was being slowly, inexorably overshadowed by something far more dangerous.
Hope.
The routine of the morning was a grueling, agonizing affair.
When Harry returned with the tray, Draco forced himself to sit upright, refusing to let Harry spoon-feed him unless absolutely necessary. The silver nerve-regenerative potion was, as promised, excruciating. The moment the iridescent liquid hit his stomach, the deadened pathways in his left arm violently sparked to life.
Draco bit completely through his lower lip, a drop of bright red blood welling up, as the spasm seized his hand. His fingers curled inward, locked in a rigid, agonizing claw.
Harry was there instantly. He didn't offer empty platitudes. He wrapped his large, warm hands over the spasming wrist, pouring his ambient, golden magic directly into the inflamed tissue, providing a thermal buffer against the chemical burn of the potion.
"Breathe," Harry commanded quietly, sitting on the edge of the mattress, his knee pressed against Draco's hip for grounding contact. "Let it fire. I've got you."
It took ten minutes for the agony to subside into a dull, electric throbbing. Draco slumped back against the pillows, entirely spent, his t-shirt sticking to his skin with cold sweat.
He managed to eat half the bowl of oatmeal before his stomach violently rebelled against the rich food. Harry didn't push. He vanished the remaining food with a flick of his holly wand and handed Draco a glass of cool water.
At exactly ten o'clock, the heavy chime of the doorbell echoed up from the ground floor.
"That will be Hermione," Harry said, standing up and gathering the empty vials onto the tray. "She's bringing the Prophet, and she needs to check the stitches on your shoulder."
Draco nodded numbly. The prospect of facing Granger was always a complicated knot of profound gratitude and lingering, historical shame.
Harry left the room, returning five minutes later with Hermione in tow.
She looked exhausted, the dark circles under her eyes rivaling Harry's. She was wearing her formal Ministry robes, but they looked rumpled, as if she had slept in her office chair. She carried her heavy, magically expanded leather satchel and a tightly rolled copy of the Daily Prophet under her arm.
"Good morning, Draco," Hermione said briskly, all business, maintaining the clinical distance she knew he required. She set her satchel on the table and immediately began pulling on her sterile dragon-hide gloves. "How is the pain in the shoulder today?"
"It's tight," Draco answered honestly, pulling the collar of his shirt slightly to the side to expose the thick white bandages. "It burns when I bear weight on the right side."
"That is to be expected," Hermione noted, stepping up to the bed. "The torn fibers are knitting, but the scar tissue lacks elasticity. I need to remove the bandage and apply a fresh layer of mending salve."
Harry moved to his transfigured chair, sitting down and watching the procedure quietly.
Hermione worked with terrifying efficiency. She unwrapped the linen, exposing the deep, jagged crater in the deltoid. The wound was horrific, but the angry, weeping red edges had closed, replaced by a thick, raised, shiny pink lattice of new skin.
She applied a generous coating of a golden, foul-smelling paste. Draco winced, his breath catching as the magic sank into the bone, but he didn't pull away.
"The structural integrity is solid," Hermione declared, wrapping a fresh, thinner bandage around the joint. "You no longer need the sling, but you are strictly forbidden from lifting anything heavier than a teacup with this arm for another week. If you tear this again, the muscle loss will be permanent."
"Understood," Draco murmured, pulling his collar back into place.
Hermione stripped off her gloves, dropping them into her satchel. She let out a long, heavy sigh, the Healer persona dropping away to reveal the exhausted politician beneath. She turned to Harry, picking up the rolled copy of the Daily Prophet from the table.
"The Wizengamot ratified the housing allocations last night at midnight," Hermione reported, her voice flat. "The first forty probationers have been moved from St. Mungo's into secure flats in the upper alleys. But Nott is fighting a rear-guard action in the press."
She tossed the newspaper onto Harry's lap.
Draco’s eyes darted to the paper. The headline was massive, screaming across the front page in bold, accusatory black ink.
THE BROKEN SAVIOR? HEAD AUROR POTTER ABANDONS POST AMIDST POLITICAL CHAOS!
Is the Boy Who Lived Suffering a Post-War Psychological Collapse?
Beneath the headline was a moving photograph of Harry from yesterday, walking out of the Wizengamot chambers, looking utterly exhausted, his face a mask of cold, terrifying fury.
Harry didn't even blink. He looked at the headline, tossed the paper onto the floor beside his chair, and crossed his arms.
"Let Rita Skeeter write whatever she wants," Harry said dismissively. "It doesn't change the legislation."
"It changes the optics, Harry," Hermione argued, rubbing her temples. "Nott is leaking rumors to the press that the raid in the Warrens triggered a PTSD episode. They are claiming your 'leave of absence' is actually a mandatory psychiatric suspension. They are trying to invalidate your executive order by proving you are mentally unfit for office."
Draco felt the blood drain from his face. A cold, heavy stone of guilt plummeted into his stomach.
It was his fault. Harry had walked away from his career, abandoned his post, and given his political enemies the exact ammunition they needed, all to sit in a bedroom and feed oatmeal to a Death Eater.
"You have to go back," Draco said instantly, his voice rising in panic. He looked at Harry, his grey eyes wide. "Potter, you have to go back to the Ministry. Let them see you. Do a press conference. If they invalidate the order, they'll bring the dampeners back. They'll empty the flats."
"They cannot invalidate the order," Hermione corrected gently, looking at Draco with a mixture of sympathy and frustration. "It is legally binding. But they can make Harry's return to the department a bureaucratic nightmare."
"I don't care about the department," Harry snapped, his voice sharp and unyielding. He glared at the newspaper on the floor. "I am not performing for Skeeter. I am not dancing for Nott. I took a leave of absence because I am exhausted, and because my priority is here. Ron has the Aurors locked down tight. They won't rebel."
"Harry, you cannot isolate yourself entirely," Hermione pleaded, stepping closer to his chair. "The public needs to see that you are stable."
"The public can go to hell!" Harry roared, suddenly standing up, the chair scraping violently against the floorboards.
Draco flinched, pressing himself hard against the headboard, his left hand flying to his chest. The sudden, explosive anger was terrifying, a sharp reminder of the lethal power Harry possessed.
Harry saw the flinch. He froze instantly, the anger draining from his face, replaced by immediate, profound regret. He held his hands up, palms open, taking a deliberate step back from the bed.
"I'm sorry," Harry said, his voice dropping into a low, steady rumble, directed entirely at Draco. "I'm not angry at you. I'm just sick of the politics."
He turned to Hermione, his expression exhausted but resolute. "I am not doing a press conference, Hermione. Tell Kingsley that if Nott wants to challenge my mental state, he can do it to my face in a duel. Otherwise, I am taking my accumulated leave."
Hermione stared at him for a long moment. She saw the absolute stubbornness in his jaw, the immovable loyalty that had defined him since he was eleven years old. She sighed in defeat.
"Fine," Hermione conceded, picking up her satchel. "But I will be drafting a formal statement from the Legal Oversight office confirming your voluntary leave. I have to go back. The forensic accountants found another shell vault in Geneva we need to freeze."
She walked to the door. "Keep him resting, Harry. The nerve potion requires absolute minimal stress to properly map the pathways."
She offered Draco a brief, professional nod and walked out, closing the door behind her.
The silence that returned to the room was thick with tension. The Daily Prophet lay on the floor, the headline a screaming accusation of Draco's own burden.
Harry bent down, picked up the paper, and tossed it into the hearth. The magical flames consumed it instantly, turning the screaming headline to ash.
"You are ruining your life for me," Draco whispered, his voice trembling. He couldn't look at Harry. He stared at his own bandaged hands. "They are going to strip you of your badge. They'll say I corrupted you with dark magic. You have to go back to work."
Harry walked back to the bed. He sat down heavily in the chair, leaning forward, resting his elbows on his knees.
"My badge isn't my life, Draco," Harry said quietly. "It's just a piece of silver. My life is sitting in this room. And I am exactly where I want to be."
Draco squeezed his eyes shut, a tear slipping free. The absolute, unyielding devotion was a weight he didn't know how to carry. It was a terrifying, beautiful thing, and it made him feel completely, utterly inadequate.
By late afternoon, the claustrophobia of the guest room had become unbearable.
Draco felt like a caged animal. The physical pain was a dull, manageable throb, but the psychological pressure of the Prophet headline was eating him alive. He needed to prove he wasn't a helpless invalid. He needed to prove to himself, and to Harry, that the Savior hadn't thrown his career away for a broken toy.
Harry was downstairs in the kitchen, preparing tea and ostensibly attempting to negotiate with Kreacher over the evening meal.
Draco pushed the covers aside. He stood up, testing his weight on the right leg. It held. The limp was pronounced, and the pull of the scar tissue was sharp, but he could walk.
He moved to the nightstand, picking up his hawthorn wand with his right hand. The smooth, polished wood felt warm against his palm, a steady, comforting hum of silver magic resonating from the core.
He tucked the wand into the pocket of his dark grey trousers. He walked out of the bedroom, moving silently down the corridor. He bypassed the stairs leading down to the foyer and walked toward the heavy oak doors of the library.
The library was empty, the fire banked low in the massive hearth. The smell of old parchment and dust was comforting, a stark contrast to the sterile smells of potions and blood in the medical bay.
Draco walked to the large mahogany reading table in the center of the room.
He didn't sit down. He pulled the hawthorn wand from his pocket.
He remembered the feeling of the magic flowing the night before, guided by Harry's warm, golden scaffold. He remembered the brilliant, steady sphere of silver light. He wanted to feel it again. He needed to know that his magic wasn't entirely dependent on Harry Potter holding his hand.
Draco took a deep breath, squaring his shoulders. He pointed the wand at a heavy, leather-bound volume resting on the far edge of the table. A simple levitation charm. First-year curriculum.
"Wingardium Leviosa," Draco commanded, executing the precise swish and flick.
He pushed his magic outward, focusing on the intent, trying to bypass the frantic, terrified anxiety humming in his chest.
The wand sparked. A faint, silver glow illuminated the tip, and the heavy book shivered on the table, lifting perhaps half an inch off the wood.
Draco’s heart leaped. It was working. He was casting.
But his core, bruised, exhausted, and fundamentally traumatized by a decade of suppression, could not sustain the output. The silver magic stuttered, fracturing in his pathways.
The book dropped back to the table with a heavy thud.
The recoil of the failed spell slammed backward down Draco's arm. It felt like a physical electric shock hitting his chest. He gasped, stumbling backward, dropping the wand. It clattered loudly onto the floorboards.
His vision swam with dark spots, his knees buckling. He caught himself heavily on the edge of the reading table with his left hand, forgetting entirely about the nerve damage.
The moment his left hand bore weight, the regenerating nerves screamed in absolute, blinding agony. His arm gave out completely.
Draco collapsed onto the floor of the library, hitting the hardwood hard on his right side. The impact drove the breath from his lungs and sent a white-hot spike of agony through his stitched shoulder.
He curled into a tight ball, clutching his left wrist to his chest, gasping for air that wouldn't come. The magical whiplash surged, plunging the temperature in the room by twenty degrees. Frost began to creep across the floorboards beneath him, a physical manifestation of his panicked, misfiring core.
He was broken. He was a Squib. He was a liability.
"Draco!"
The library doors slammed open.
Harry ran into the room, abandoning a tray of tea on a side table near the door. He took in the freezing air, the frost on the floor, the dropped wand, and the man curled in agony by the reading table.
Harry dropped to his knees on the freezing wood, reaching out.
"Don't touch me!" Draco screamed, the words tearing out of his raw throat. He scrambled backward, his boots slipping on the frost, pressing himself into the corner between the bookshelf and the wall. "Don't! Just leave me alone!"
Harry froze, his hands hovering in the air. The raw, unadulterated panic in Draco's voice stopped him dead. He immediately pulled his hands back, sitting back on his heels, keeping his distance.
"Okay," Harry said, his voice dropping into the low, steady rumble. "I'm not touching you. I'm right here. Just breathe, Draco. The backlash is temporary."
"It isn't temporary!" Draco sobbed, his chest heaving, his grey eyes wild and dilated with terror. He glared at the dropped hawthorn wand on the floor. "I can't even lift a book, Potter! I am useless! My core is dead! You threw your entire career away for a broken, pathetic Squib who can't even hold a wand!"
"You are not a Squib," Harry stated firmly, his green eyes locking onto Draco's. "You are recovering from systemic magical trauma. It takes time."
"I don't have time!" Draco yelled, the frustration and the crushing guilt of the Prophet headline finally boiling over into a volatile, destructive rage. "They are writing articles about you! They are saying you're mentally unstable! Because you're hiding in this house nursing a Death Eater! You are destroying your legacy, and I can't even cast a levitation charm to prove I'm worth saving!"
Harry didn't yell back. He didn't defend his legacy. He looked at the desperately proud, shattered man cowering in the corner, bleeding from a thousand invisible wounds, and he felt a surge of anger—not at Draco, but at the entire bloody universe that had convinced him his worth was tied to his utility.
Harry stood up. He walked over to the dropped hawthorn wand. He didn't pick it up. He simply kicked it gently across the floor until it rested near Draco's boots.
Then, Harry reached into the pocket of his sweatpants. He pulled out his own holly wand.
Draco’s breath caught, his eyes widening. A deeply ingrained, instinctual fear spiked in his chest. A drawn wand was a threat.
Harry looked at the holly wand. He looked at the wood that had defeated Voldemort, the wood that commanded the Auror department, the wood that had defined his entire identity as the Savior since he was eleven years old.
Without a word, Harry knelt on the freezing, frost-covered floorboards. He deliberately, carefully placed the holly wand flat on the ground. With a gentle push of his fingers, he sent it sliding across the slick wood until it hit the toe of Draco’s boot.
Draco gasped, lunging forward slightly, his shock entirely overriding his pain. "What are you doing?!"
Harry didn't stand up. He sat back on his heels, raising his empty hands, palms open and exposed.
"There," Harry said, his voice echoing loudly in the freezing library. "Now I'm unarmed. Now my magic is yours to break. Are you going to throw me out of the house?"
Draco stared at him, his mouth parted in absolute, stunned disbelief. He looked at the holly wand resting against his boot, and then back to Harry's empty hands.
"You surrendered it," Draco whispered, his mind completely unable to process the magnitude of the action. To give up a wand in a hostile situation was madness. To give it to an enemy was suicide. To give it to Draco Malfoy was an act of trust so profound it felt like a physical weight. "Your wand. You just gave it to me."
"It's just wood and feather, Draco," Harry said softly, leaning forward, resting his elbows on his knees, entirely unbothered by his vulnerability. "It doesn't define me. And your magic doesn't define you. What matters is that you understand that my worth, and your worth, is not tied to our ability to cast."
Harry slowly crossed his legs, ignoring the biting cold of the floor, settling in right across from Draco.
"You didn't ruin my career, Draco," Harry said, his green eyes burning with that familiar, immovable intensity. "I walked away because I was drowning in that department. I was suffocating under the expectations. Saving you... pulling you out of that alley... it was the first time in ten years I felt like I was actually doing something real. You didn't break me. You woke me up."
Draco stared into the vibrant, intense green eyes. The absolute sincerity in Harry's voice dismantled the last, stubborn fortress of Draco's paranoia.
The Savior wasn't hiding out of pity. The Savior was hiding because he was just as exhausted, just as traumatized, and just as desperate for a sanctuary as Draco was.
"I couldn't lift the book," Draco whispered, the anger completely draining out of him, leaving only a profound, heavy sorrow. He looked down at his trembling left hand. "It sparked, and then it just... shattered."
"Because you did it alone," Harry said gently. "And your core is still fractured. It needs a scaffold."
Harry reached out, slowly, offering his right hand, palm up, exactly as he had done the day before.
"You don't have to prove anything to me," Harry murmured. "But if you want to try again, I am right here."
Draco looked at the offered hand. The memory of the kiss, the heat of the fire, the absolute, unwavering devotion—it was all contained in that simple gesture.
Slowly, fighting the pain in his shoulder, Draco reached out. He placed his trembling, scarred hand into Harry's palm.
Harry’s fingers closed warmly around his. The golden, ambient magic flowed instantly, a soothing, heavy tide that washed over Draco's misfiring nerves, melting the frost off the floorboards and chasing the chill from the air.
"I'm scared, Harry," Draco confessed, the whisper raw and completely stripped of any aristocratic pretense.
"I know," Harry replied softly, his thumb rubbing a gentle circle against Draco's knuckles. "Me too."
They sat on the floor of the library, two wands resting abandoned in the dust, holding onto each other in the quiet, terrified, beautiful beginning of whatever came next.